There have been two things that were my refuge for most of life. From age 16 my refuge consisted of words and music. I wrote my first song then, and it was as if I took a trip to that proverbial island, where I could be who I am and not care about anything else. I felt like I exorcised a painful piece of life and replaced it with a song. I remember growing up and listening to words from bands, even when I was 6 or 7 years old. I really "heard" those lyrics and in a few years after, I was really feeling those lyrics, relating to them and feeling like there was someone else out there who felt like I did, and they wrote a song about it. This is what inspired me to later write my own, hoping that someone would relate to my lyrics too. And I did that for pretty much the rest of my life... and I wrote hundreds of songs and poems because with each one, I healed a little piece in me that was hurt... or angry... or sad... and eventually, I even wrote songs that were happy and yes, even the quintessential love song!
With every break-up came a song...I was writing and recording songs every weekend and on holidays... I was addicted because it felt so freeing and it was a way to express myself, a way to be heard. There were times when I wrote a song about something that had not happned yet... and then it occurred and I learned that the power of words came from a place that was not always conscious but from my intuition or sub-conscious and I was fascinated.
Later when I started performing my music in public and creating CDs, etc. I think the best compliment I ever received was when people came up to me after a performance and said your music got me through my divorce...and though I never made it to the top of the charts or stardom, to me, that was successful, that like others who had gotten me through adolescense and so much more, my music touched another.
Writing songs was indeed, my drug of choice, but of all the drugs out there, it was not so destructive and in essence, what I did was journal my way through life through songs... through words.... and music.
(Per Ana's request) - here is a link to a video of a song I sang and wrote and was made in 1992 - "Reckless Lucy" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=E0WVz_HeLxM During a band rehearsal years later, a band member asked, "Do you know Lucy?" (I'm the one with the very big hair!)
Dancer wrote 659 Days Ago (neutral)0Rockin' Robbie, there's nobody quite like you! Music is in our blood and I can't wait for our future date of swapping stories... Hugs, Barbara1 point Robbie wrote 668 Days Ago (neutral)0Thank you Karen! My pleasure to share my big hair! I'm not proud. haha Elle- so relate to that - Emily - I am so honored, thank you! and thank YOU Ana for giving me the nudge!0 points Karen-Monroy wrote 669 Days Ago (positive)1Robbie, you are SO talented, and I love the way you share so much of yourself with the world.....thank you for the video link and the wonderful post. Love ya Chicka!1 point admin wrote 669 Days Ago (neutral)0LOVE this!!!! Thank you for sharing the link, Robbie. The music video is magic, your voice in hypnotic. xxxooo1 point Elle wrote 669 Days Ago (neutral)0Music and words can heal a lot of things. They helped me through my darkest times.
Great post, Robbie!1 point