I always start each year avoiding a specific resolution by simply stating, "I just want to change my mind & body for the better." And, as you probably have guessed, each year ends with no changes, no better & sometimes just a little worse for wear & tear. I am determined that by this year's end, I can not only list the changes I've made but hardwired them into my way of life. After yet another recent attempt to end my misery, I can say this with conviction, "I want to live, just not with the existing version of me". I'll draw upon the strength & wisdom of all of you here, at Women on the Verge, because you've accepted me as I shouldn't be & inspired me to change to as I could be.
What specifically do I want to change in 2012:
- Let people in & not push them away to keep myself safe from what they may think of me.
- Write that book as I always wanted to (during my recent stay at a hospital I wrote the outline & my confidence grew with each word that I can do it.). Not sure how to get it published but I will find a way.
- Find my truths...scary & sad but I'm not sure what they are.
- Create a peaceful & prosperous relationship with money.
- Learn to love the person known as Heidi, flaws & all.
I can't be a change agent for the world at large until I change myself. But I can dream of what I would champion.
- Re-energize the women's movement for 2012 & beyond.
I didn't have the chance to say it earlier...Happy New Year, my WOTV friends. Thank you for your support, wise words & inspiration. You've given me a reason to believe I am worthy to live.
bookmark_terry wrote 492 Days Ago (neutral)0I like these words a lot. I need to listen to them and put them into practice. Please consider me a friend, Heidi. I like what you do.0 points Marta wrote 497 Days Ago (neutral)0Heidi, Thank you for accepting my friendship. It really means a lot to me. As do your posts, which inspire me to be better. You mske a differnce in my life, whether you know it or not.0 points Heidi wrote 498 Days Ago (neutral)0Thank you Ana, as always, for the support, wise words & many hugs & xxx000. You've triggered another blog with your words "forgive myself for the cycles...". Do agree it's a challenge, one that is still a work in progress for me. Have a great day, lots of love your way.0 points AnaLewis wrote 498 Days Ago (neutral)0Happy New Year Heidi! So thankful for you. I have been in a quiet stage this week, and thinking of you often. I have learned, because of you, to try to allow myself to listen to my body and mind and forgive myself for the cycles... sometimes it's a challenge. (((hugs))) xxxooo0 points