With only three full days left before I enter the hospital i am feeling anxious. I've been spending a lot of time working with the people who will make up my recovery team. It's been tiring answering the same questions from different people everyday. Overall, most of the team seems great and it's making me feel a lot better about going.
As I count down the hours I still have left where I have any say over what I eat and drink I know I have to keep myself busy. It's all too easy to start thinking it could be my last time to exercise, my last time to skip breakfast, my last time to have a rum and coke.
So what have I been up to instead?
I've been binge reading. In the last few day's I've finished a lot of books. I attended a small press book fair a few weeks ago and picked up The Theif of Broken Toys. I read it in about a day and it kept me really engaged. I would highly recommend it to anyone looking for a distraction or just a good read. I've owned a copy of Atwood's Blind Assassin for alomst 9 years, after stoping and starting many time's I am going to be using the next few days to get through it.
I've also been working on art. I have put a few new pieces up on Etsy and new posters up on ArtBreak. I have a craft show in a few weeks and am really hoping to be able to bring some posters to it. I love sketching and it would be great to sell some of those pieces.
I have plans to attend a feminist seminar this weekend, hoping to meet some active people and learn more about how the Toronto organization works. I've got a tonne of paperwork to get through for Monday and a few workbooks to read. I will focus on the moment and not think about what will happen on Monday, next week or next month. I plan to do some blogging while I am in the program as a way of sharing with the world what treatment means to me.
Fuster wrote 1048 Days Ago (neutral)0Melissa,
I haven't been on the site for over a week just getting back from vacation and saw your two posts. I'm relatively new here to the site, but your words caught my attention. You have my support and attention. Keep up the strength and push forward. We are here for you...I'm here for you.
Keep sharing your journey its both inspirational and a healthy release.